The Language of Music
Music is my soul’s language. In songs, I find the words for my emotions. Words I can’t seem to summon on my own.
There was an Aries full moon recently. Oh, I guess I should say, there will be a lot of astrology in this post. At this point in my life, everything gets filtered through an astrological lens and I hope I can explain it well enough so even if you are not as familiar with astrology you can get what I’m trying to say.
Anyway, the Aries full moon last weekend completely upset my body. I had a headache for a week, I couldn’t sleep and I was fidgity and irritable for days. Mars, the planet of the war god, rules Aries, and it likes to go fast. It is impatient and testy. I was feeling that energy full force. Because I don’t really like to show anger (Aries’ most accessible emotion) I generally turn it all inward. I started fighting with myself. Berating myself. Fury roiling with nowhere to go. Thus the physical symptoms of headache and tension. At the time of the full moon I heard the song Spitting off the Edge of the World, and I sent the song to my cousin and music buddy Alex with only two words, “today’s vibe.” In the song I felt some release reminding me of how music always tells me what I need to hear. That’s why I call it my soul’s language.
I think I was subconsciously fighting the Aries energy. I didn’t want to hear or feel what it had to tell me, I wanted forward motion on something but I didn’t know what and I was feeling incredibly stuck. There was something deep down that wanted out but I didn’t want to hear it. Didn’t want to follow the trail it was putting me on and that made the symptoms I was feeling even worse. Certainly the sleeplessness. My mind was racing all night long. You see, Aries is also a trailblazer, a pioneer. He does not follow trends, he makes them. He is not afraid to be his own wildly original self. And that does not go well with my Cancer sun who likes to be cozy and safe behind the protective walls of my house or shell as it were.
I think the moon also fueled the fact that my progressed moon changed into Aries this spring. For those of you who are less familiar with astrology, you have a natal moon, which is where the moon is when you are born, and to quote my current astrological mentor, Crystal B, the progressed moon is the current skin the moon is in. So even though my natal moon is Gemini, my current moon is wearing an Aries skin. For this combination think of it like busy bee wearing a ram costume charging hard into flowers rather than dropping lightly into them. So between the full moon and my own personal progressed moon that full speed energy was pushing hard against my own internal blocks until finally after days of squirming and aggravation I realized I needed to make a playlist. Sometimes the most obvious things escape us the longest but I know that music just captures my innermost emotions, and the energy that’s swirling around inside my body with nowhere to go can finally escape once I hear just the right thing that expresses what I need expressed.
So, if you are feeling that kind of energy too I offer you this playlist. I hope it helps you like it has me.